Last night, the power went out. That is a relatively normal thing, but why that means at my house is that my stepmother no longer has a distraction. She is an insomniac, and if she has to stay awake bored she wants everyone else to stay awake also despite whether or not they have to wake up early tomorrow or if they have been waking up early. My frustration isn't so much with having to stay awake as much as it is to how she chose to entertain herself. I didn't technically do anything wrong, so she couldn't do anything to "punish" me but she still went after me. She spent hours insulting me for not forcing her to get up and go to a doctors appointment, but the last time I tried to, she was furious because I questioned her. This time, I didn't question her, but it was still my fault because it was my appointment and my problem. Only an idiot would think she had a plan while she was lying in bed resting. I'm not college material, and the only thing I will do in life is sweep the ground at amusement parks, which is the only thing I'm good at. I'm so lazy and stupid that I should just be taken back to "homeschool" and clean her floors all day. That's what I'll be doing in life. She kept me awake by having me exercise on the floor in front of her while telling me how out of shape I was and how I was "jiggling". I weigh 106 pounds, I know she is lying but it still hurts to look in the mirror and see all the things that need to change. Luckily she got distracted by her phone, so it could have been worse. What just really stung about this time though was what my mom said to me this morning. She told me that I should have just been quiet. I get she was trying to tell me that whenever I respond it is like letting her win, but I would only respond with one sentence to try to answer the question. The point is though, that the only way to get by somewhat unscathed is to withdraw even further. It isn't like this time was even particularly bad, I'm just kind of sad because it just gets lonely and it is tiring trying to stay positive.