2day has been really hard, my depression feel's like it is getting worse and no matter what i try and how much i try 2 stay positive and will myself 2get better nothing seem's 2 change... and now i don't know what 2 do anymore coz i know i'm never gonna get better and beat this and i'm alway's gonna feel this way...and that's unbearable. I'm lost, empty got no more fight or hope left in me and i think there's only 1option left 4 me...i don't wanna do it, it scare's me, but i can't live like this anymore...it feel's like i'm dead on the inside already. I did the burn's depression questionnaire scored 82! and made me realise there's no escape from this and all i wanna do is escape from myself 4 a little while. I just want it 2 go away...that's all i want...is that 2 much 2 ask?