Tbh I don't even know why I'm posting this, but I just can't cope anymore. I've tried my hardest since January to keep myself going, to get my life back on track after I just broke down and pretty much stopped living and lost everything. It's been all over the place since, just when I think things are finally looking up for me I come crashing back down again. And now, I've lost the one person that kept me going. I've tried getting help, been to the doctors only to be ignored. I'm so scared of asking for help from others as well, it's pathetic. I always put on an act to show I'm ok and then wonder why the hell I did it when I know I could have done with some help. I guess I feel ashamed, that people will want to lock me up and think I'm crazy. Now that I've lost the person that I love more than anything I just simply don't know what to do. To top it off I'm pregnant as well so I'm trying my hardest to keep going for the sake of my baby...but what sort of mum would I be anyway?? My baby is better off without me, but I don't want to end things now cos I'd kill my baby too. Seriously though, I've run out of options to cope. I don't know how I'm gonna keep myself going anymore. I may sound selfish, but I'm at the end of my tether. How do you keep yourself going when every minute of everyday is a struggle?? :cry: Wow, sorry for the length of that post...guess I needed to vent a bit.