I felt that this was the best place to put this thread. So when I think back on my life, I see that I have always been a self-abuser. But not in the physical aspect of it. I would sabatoge myself that is what I would do. For example, One semester i came home with a 2.7 GPA and my mom scoulded me for it. I told her it could be MUCH MUCH worse. And I also felt the need to prove it. So the next semster I came home with a 1.9 GPA. Just to show her. I have always been into making statements and proving them. I love NOTHING more than a person to tell me I cannot do something then I go and do it... no matter how bad it is for me. I don't know I was just wondering how I stop doing this or if anyone else has done it?