I dont know exactly why I do it I can only harbor guesses, but I think I sabotage my own relationships. I dont know if im unnecessarily needy or what, but I dont usually feel secure in a relationship, like the one im in now. I went for a walk with a different guy I did NOT cheat on my boyfriend, but he was hurt by it. He was reasonable and said if it happened again we couldnt be together, and I completely understand and if it were me I'd probably say the same thing. I do feel bad about it. I know I shouldnt have done it and everything even thou I technically did nothing wrong as nothing happened between the two of us.
I duno, I just dont feel loved or desired a lot of the time by him, even thou he will say he likes me and cares or whatever. He was actually around that night and I just felt like he wanted nothing to do with me, like he would rather me not be around. So I guess I just talked to whoever would talk to me, which ended up being that random guy. I did tell the guy I had a boyfriend and who he was and everything too. I just I duno, I feel like I do things to sabotage my own relationships, to make the other person end it (even thou we are still together he did mention breaking up with me over it) just because I feel like they dont want to be with me and they are looking for a reason to end it. I duno this is all pretty dumb I guess, but I have no idea whats going on really...why do I always sabortage my own relationships when they make me happy? Why do I always feel like the person I'm with doesnt like me and feels like they're wasting their time?
ugh. sorry that was a lot of random rambling as well....
I duno, I just dont feel loved or desired a lot of the time by him, even thou he will say he likes me and cares or whatever. He was actually around that night and I just felt like he wanted nothing to do with me, like he would rather me not be around. So I guess I just talked to whoever would talk to me, which ended up being that random guy. I did tell the guy I had a boyfriend and who he was and everything too. I just I duno, I feel like I do things to sabotage my own relationships, to make the other person end it (even thou we are still together he did mention breaking up with me over it) just because I feel like they dont want to be with me and they are looking for a reason to end it. I duno this is all pretty dumb I guess, but I have no idea whats going on really...why do I always sabortage my own relationships when they make me happy? Why do I always feel like the person I'm with doesnt like me and feels like they're wasting their time?
ugh. sorry that was a lot of random rambling as well....