is it weird that i am suicidal and too sad that i guess i'm not "sad" anymore..? like seriously when people see me they might freak out a bit bc of how i am. i just..idk i feel so empty and i can hardly cry now. ugh i don't even know. my sister says i've got serious mental issues but she does nothing about it, my mum seems to be terrified of how i can be and my dad just seems slightly worried but also mad. also, i may laugh and smile but i still want to die.