ADs just mask who you are. I haven't been the real me for 9 years, the years I was on Zoloft. The real me is this, an empty shell who hates life. I thought to myself recently, "God, I was so happy just three months ago" but then I thought, no, the me on drugs was happy. I came off ADs thinking I didn't need them anymore. BTW I can't go back on them because I'm participating in a clinical trial and I have to be clean for that (another two months) besides, I can't afford the pills, another reason I stopped taking them. And taking them won't get rid of the tinnitus, it'll only make it worse (as I've read elsewhere). Three dilemmas.