Honestly I do not know if this place is going to aid me. Reading about the losses of some of the others did not make matters any easy for me it was scratching the wounds to make them bleed afresh. But there are no one else to whom I can look upon sharing my feelings, maybe you people can share my burden and help me breathe easier. My beloved with whom I had a loving relationship for the last 10 years passed away last week. Its too tough for me to express in words how I feel but the pain is unbearable. Is there any reason for me to live in this world?