Hey it's me again. lol. I don't know what i'm rooting for with these posts tbh. I'd like to know simply, does anyone feel sadness all the time? For me it's a constant emotion each day, along with feeling low, and alone, wherever I am. There's things that happen in the world that somehow make me feel worse but why i'm so sad, I don't know. I was thinking to myself i'm going to live another 60-70 years, but I don't want to hang around that long, especially not like this. This isn't something i've thought about on a whim, it's how I feel. I'm trying not to sound silly but I wish there was an off button for my life. I don't want a scene, I would just disappear on my own. Obviously I can't do the s word because my family would die inside, they have so many problems, how can they take mine too? I guess what i'm saying is I feel trapped. I so badly want no more of this, just a subtle end, but I can't. I don't know what the answer is.