just want to get a few things out. feeling really sad. and lonely. haven't talked to another soul all day, not sure who would notice if i left. except my cat, i'm sure he'd notice. he's really all i have. trying to keep a brave face on but i want things to be different. i want things to be better in my family, i want support from them and i'm feeling like i'm never going to get it. i told my sister that i was hospitalized and she just changed the subject. that really hurt. it still hurts. i wish we were closer. we're twins and it's our birthday next week. i doubt she'll even send a card. i'm just so lonely. thanks for listening.