Hey to those bored enough to read this. I am new here, obviously. Recently, I lost my father to suicide while I was living with him. I am now being forced by circumstances to live with my emotionally distant brother, his wife, and his kids. I'm 18 on September 1st. I'm a high school dropout, I dropped out when I made an attempt at my own life last December while I was living alone. I was hospitalized for a week and as far as anyone else knows, I just was unavailable that week. I'd made another attempt December before last. I was planning to get my life back together while living with my father but that isn't going to happen apparently, as the forces that be prevent anything good from happening to me, as it seems. In this place I'm feeling very alone and I know these desires very well. I'm beginning to find it impossible to remember a day I haven't thought of putting myself down. Even as far back as I can remember as a 10 year old. Well, I'm here and alone. Hopefully I'll find something here, I think I'm overdue for a good thing. about 10-13 years late actually.