just spend last half hour or so on phone with samaritans...the lady i spoke to was really cool and she is arranging for someone to call me after doc appoint on weds. it was a relief to actually vocalise to a stranger what is adding to my probs , they dont know me i dont know them, and like here they dont judge you..i just needed to hear a real voice and give in to the voices. whether i disclose to doc on weds or not is another matter..i just wanted it out of my head to deal with current exposure...so i recommend samaritans to anyone that wants to vent in real life...they are like sf but real.. xx