hey my name is jon rymer i am a 19year old white male from the bronx. im not quite at the point where the fear of pain of death outweighs the pain of life but its been getting pretty bad lol i wrote my suicide letter today and headed to manhattan to buy a gun. i felt really lost. its the messed up ecomomy. it has me feeling like ill never have a comoftable future. anyone elts feel this way?