I was 15 when my dad killed himself and I was in my 1st reltaionship. Now I'm 19 and have the same relationship over and over again. It starts our just sex then in about 2 weeks I fall inlove and so does he. We are so close i shut out all of my friends and family thenk after some time has passed i cheat on him break up with him, crush him, and repeat the process with the guy who i cheated on the other guy with. I am in the begining stages of a new relationship and i dont want to do this again. My xbf just tells me I'm a terrifyed little girl who wants someone to hurt as much as I am and I dont want to do this anymore. How do I break this cycle? All i do is manipulate people and lie to gain power. I dont want to do this but everytime its the same fucking thing.