Just when i thought I was out of it... and now im back in it. It took me a while, but Ive come to terms with the fact that im single, lonely, have really no friends, am boring, almost non-existent self-confidence level, dont have anything to talk about most of the time. Here I am online looking for girlfriends, and for what? Ive realized that even if I hook up initially, it's not going to last. It's the same with my friends... they dont last. Im a slob and mostly messy. I have a job which i dont mind, but still... what's the point in life? I mean, really, just to work during the day and then for me, come home and find something to do so I wont be bored. I have no ambitions in life, nothing I want to do. I cant seem to handle my money well. Im in debt, even though I spend almost nothing on expenses. I can never seem to save up money it seems. I dont have anything to do. I want to do more, but that requires friends to go out and do it, otherwise it's just miserable and lonely doing it. My friends dont want to do anything with me... heck, the dont even want to talk to me... prob cause there's something more interesting they could be doing, yet if it was another friend, they'd go out and do something with them. This is pointless, I dont see any point to living anymore. There's nothing for me in life. People may think im a great guy, but really... no. Just wait a few months, you'll be over me. Maybe I'll just end it... maybe in the next 2 weeks I'll have the time to do it. Sure my family will miss me blah blah blah, but I see no point in living anymore. This is stupid, I hate my life. If that makes me selfish, well I am, and I dont care about it. Why should it matter to anyone else... Im just one person, they'll get over it.