I'm 30 yrs old, alcoholic/heroin addict. 4 months sober but can't be happy. If everyone could just understand how uncomfortable being sober is for me. I should have died five months ago when I shot up too much heroin while I was drunk. My heart stopped and I wasn't breathing for several minutes until my brother gave me CPR. Today, I wish I had stayed dead. I don't even know why I can't function like normal people. Since I was 10 yrs old I've known I was never going to be happy like other people. No such thing as love, trust, purpose, meaning...if I can't be happy and content, then why am I trying to stay sober? Fuck life.