saturday morning

waking up I feel shattered, totally broken. like an abused child shaking in a corner with a vague wish of eternal silence
my first encounter with the sun in a long while is nothing but a torment
it forces me to acknowledge that there is love in everything
there is a bright, intense shimmer of pain everywhere in existence
THAT is the reason why I am sick

 

Doesn't sound sick to me. All I've seen lately is evil everywhere in this world, all evil hurting me, frightening me, to which I'm set to die soon.