My parents are going away on Saturday, and it's a great opportunity for me to leave. I feel that I have three options: 1. Get some friends to come over to keep me company 2. Stay at home alone and hope that I don't hurt myself too much 3. Just end it when I'm done at work I really want number 3, but I was planning on waiting until after Christmas. And the weather won't be right, so I can't go the way I want most. I just want to die so much.