My name is Lilly.
I have been thinking of suside for a long time.
I am almost ready to go.
I've never really belived in hell but haven was someplace I could imagine.
A place where dead family and dead pets could meet and live again in happiness. I miss my little brother and my father.
They died in a car acsdent 5 years ago.
Peter was 13. We fought so much, the last thing I said to him was, "stay out of my room while I'm at pratice". I now feel so bad about the way I treated him. My father, he knew I loved him but I never said it.
I have thought it through, I know how I will do it.
I am only talking about these things to my computer because I owe my mother that much. I owe her a chance. A chance for me to get over this thing and live like a NORMAL person. I don't think I'll find my salvation here on this site, at another or in a theripists office. I have given myself an untimatium. I will look for my salvation until my next birthday (August 15th) Next year. If by then I haven't found what I need I will end my life and be done with this horribly crule world we insects call earth, crawling on its surface thinking we are bigger and stronger than something that been here way longer than us.
People of the Internet, Can you SAVE LILLY?
I[/I] don't think so....
I have been thinking of suside for a long time.
I am almost ready to go.
I've never really belived in hell but haven was someplace I could imagine.
A place where dead family and dead pets could meet and live again in happiness. I miss my little brother and my father.
They died in a car acsdent 5 years ago.
Peter was 13. We fought so much, the last thing I said to him was, "stay out of my room while I'm at pratice". I now feel so bad about the way I treated him. My father, he knew I loved him but I never said it.
I have thought it through, I know how I will do it.
I am only talking about these things to my computer because I owe my mother that much. I owe her a chance. A chance for me to get over this thing and live like a NORMAL person. I don't think I'll find my salvation here on this site, at another or in a theripists office. I have given myself an untimatium. I will look for my salvation until my next birthday (August 15th) Next year. If by then I haven't found what I need I will end my life and be done with this horribly crule world we insects call earth, crawling on its surface thinking we are bigger and stronger than something that been here way longer than us.
People of the Internet, Can you SAVE LILLY?
I[/I] don't think so....