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Saw him today...

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.. So me and my friends were at the bookstore today and there he was.. with his daughters, just walking around. He looked at me and I immediately felt my fight or flight kick in. I should have been more cautious. I know that it's his town, (where the bookstore is) yet i let my guard down and now i'm paying for it.

The flashbacks are killing me and I just... I don't want to deal with them. Why does he get to walk around like nothing happened and I have to deal with flashbacks? :cry:

Fuck everything.
 

Julia-C

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You can only be so cautious. Beyond being a prisoner of your own house you have to go out in public, and trust me, being a prisoner doesn't work.

Flashbacks can be terrible. :hug: I am so sorry you are going through this now, and I am sorry he hurt you.

I wish I could answer why he gets to walk around like nothing happened. Honestly I don't know anything about your story, but even if I did I doubt that a suffice answer exists.

If you ever need someone to talk to you can send me a PM.

Again I am so sorry you are hurting.
 
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:hug: thanks for the response hun.

It's just that I'm usually cautious when I go to that town but i just forgot all about it today. Figures the day i forget, he is right there.. :cry:

It's got to be my fault. :( idk..

Sorry I'm making no sense.
 
#4
He is able to walk cause there is no justice. The worse part for me is he continues to walk freely in my dreams, I can't go somewhere else, he follows me inside my head.

I am sorry you had that experience, hope you can find a way to move on, I know it's difficult but try we must.
 

Julia-C

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Healing (forgetting) isn't a fault. You wasn't thinking about him because you are on a healing road.

No, it's not your fault. It's his fault, but the two of you being in a random place at the same time today was simply chance. Chance is something that no one has control of.

Dear you are making sense. Everything you are saying and feeling I have said and felt, so have countless others.
 
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Healing (forgetting) isn't a fault. You wasn't thinking about him because you are on a healing road.

No, it's not your fault. It's his fault, but the two of you being in a random place at the same time today was simply chance. Chance is something that no one has control of.

Dear you are making sense. Everything you are saying and feeling I have said and felt, so have countless others.
But all the healing that I've done is shattered now. Just like that...

feel so empty.. And I hate chance.

I'm really sorry for what you have gone through hun. Wish I could make everyone's pain go away. I say we take all the rotten people like him and cast them out at sea with nothing more than a teeny raft... if that... :cry:

He is able to walk cause there is no justice. The worse part for me is he continues to walk freely in my dreams, I can't go somewhere else, he follows me inside my head.

I am sorry you had that experience, hope you can find a way to move on, I know it's difficult but try we must.
Thanks hun. I hope we all can find a way to move on. Just seems impossible at them moment.
 

Acy

Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense
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But all the healing that I've done is shattered now. Just like that...
Yes, we can feel shattered when we get shocks like that, but sometimes we "spring back" from a shock faster than from the original hurt because we've done all that processing and healing the first time. I hope you find that you do get back on your feet more quickly now. Thinking of you. :hug:
 
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Yes, we can feel shattered when we get shocks like that, but sometimes we "spring back" from a shock faster than from the original hurt because we've done all that processing and healing the first time. I hope you find that you do get back on your feet more quickly now. Thinking of you. :hug:
I wrote out a letter to him and i'm feeling a little of that "spring back" :)

Still hurts and I can't really handle many more of these flashbacks but I think i'll be okay... I really hope so..

Thanks a billion hun :hug:
 
#9
I know exactly how you feel.

I was at work the other day and the guy who attacked me just "popped" up behind me. I jumped a mile and very quickly went over to my team leader. She was actually very understanding and dealt with him. However I know he looked at me, not a care in the world for what he's done.

I was left shaking and almost in tears. It isn't fair :( The same also happened the week before.. Seems our past will never go away :(

So I am sorry for not having much advice, but I understand how you feel and want to give you loadsss of hugs hun <3

:hug: :hug: :hugtackles: xx
 
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I know exactly how you feel.

I was at work the other day and the guy who attacked me just "popped" up behind me. I jumped a mile and very quickly went over to my team leader. She was actually very understanding and dealt with him. However I know he looked at me, not a care in the world for what he's done.

I was left shaking and almost in tears. It isn't fair :( The same also happened the week before.. Seems our past will never go away :(

So I am sorry for not having much advice, but I understand how you feel and want to give you loadsss of hugs hun <3

:hug: :hug: :hugtackles: xx

Aw hun I'm sorry. I know how much it sucks. :hug: If you need to talk you can PM me.
:hug:s x 130813081038107471971 :)
 
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