saying it out loud

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Freemind, Sep 21, 2008.

  1. Freemind

    Freemind Member

    i act all day to be happy i dont know why but i think i lost my best (only real) friend because im depressed all the time and act to be happyand lie beacuse of it . i hate acting now . i cant feel anything accept being so sad i hate myself because of it . i shouldnt be this way ....
    i realy want to die but i dont think i have the guts to do myself and i dont know realy want to die but killing myself relives the pressure of tommorrow what i am going to do want im going to face against .... i just want this to be over
    i hate to be myself i hate to be this way ...... i dont want to lie to people i dont want to act no more ....
    i cant sleep unless i drink and smoke ....


    i just want to say it out loud if you read it thanks for reading ...