:sigh: Make no bones about it, University saved my life. Not instantly, but gradually. Friends, a social life, responsibility, independence. But in a months time I leave with nothing but memories and I'm not ready. You could argue I went to university for the wrong reasons in the first place. I was getting close to suicide, spending days alone hiding in my little corner on the internet. I needed friends, I needed to get out of my room. But now I am about to return to that room, returning to that life. No more student life bubble. I have had jobs in an office, in a shop. I know that, for me, the job doesn't save your life, you need a life, work life balance, if you don't have a life then job just drains and makes things worse. I've looked at grad jobs, i've applied for one, but I know, in my heart, or is it my head? How do you tell? The job wont bring a life with it. My personality, who I am, I am introvert, naturally harder to forge a life, easier to become depressed because of it. I try to talk to my friends about my fears for the future, they do not understand. I just get the same answers, you'll be fine, join a club, get a job etc. It doesn't work like that, I'd like to think I know a lot more about myself and the way things work for me now as I get older, I know enough to know it won't work. I'd like to think I have generated enough wisdom to know how this is. A fool learns from his mistakes, a wise man has the foresight to not make them. I need a circumstance I can grow in, build a life in, I do not see where, the one I had ends in 1 month. I am scared, I am heading back to the lonely anxiety, depression, hell ridden life.