I don't know how to deal with anything anymore... I'm so depressed and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. I see a therapist but only once a week and I missed my appointment yesterday because I've been so absent-minded lately so I won't be able to go to her until next week. I can't talk to my roommates about anything because when I try I know it stresses them out. I want to talk to them so badly but I never feel comfortable approaching them. I just don't know who to turn to anymore... I'm constantly exhausted, I'm lucky if I can make it to class, I want to sleep all the time. I'm not eating much. I can't keep up with homework and studying and I can already see it affecting my performance in my classes. I'm really scared I'll fail out of college or something. This is all so fucking stressful. I just want it to go away. No one understands what I'm going through. My friends all say they have their own shit to deal with. None of them were raped, none of them have gone through the shit I'm going through right now. I don't want to sound selfish but I feel like they're making excuses to not talk to me about it because they don't want to stress themselves out with my problems, they don't realize how badly I need them. I've had suicidal thoughts in the past and I've had them for the past couple weeks and I'm absolutely terrified that one day I'll snap or something. I've never planned anything out or had any attempts or anything like that but I'm so scared it'll get worse. I don't know what to do right now. Please help me.