i dont want to feel this way. I dont want to do anything stupid in the heat of the moment. My bipolar has left me in a depressed stage, no end in sight. I have a plan, i decided on it months ago. But i dont want to use it. Mostly. I have a better plan that involves me going to the hospital and getting help! But i dont wanna do that either unless im in dire straits. Im just scared of my impulsive nature....... Sorry if this post is rubbish.