I don't really know what to say or where to start, i took a big overdose about 3 months ago but the feelings and thoughts never subsided, my children are away visiting their dads, i have the means, a plan and soon the oppertunity but i am scared. Not of dying although the fact i'm not scared of death is unnerving, i am scared it will go wrong; i'll be found. How can i make myself shout for help? Even just for my kids? I feel nothing.... dead! I have told the crisis team but they gave me sleeping tablets and said as long as my 19 year old daughter and 21 year old friend are around then i am safe... but i'm not and that little voice that asked for help is getting so, so quiet!!!