I keep getting into situations that could turn into relationships but run away and end up hurting the other person. My last relationship ended 4 years ago because she stabbed me in the back. She never cheated on me but what she did was worse in some ways. Since then i've not been in a relationship. Before this time I had been in relationships since I was 15 (i'm now 28). I have 3 children with 2 ex's. I now am so scared that i'll be hurt that I run away within a few days. I am even scared to tell them or call ever again... I just block all numbers. I hate myself for it as some of them have been amazing. I want to trust them, but I am just to scared now... I feel like i'm using them or thats what they will think. As i'm on probation and in a hostle I cant live with them and I also dont want to tell them this... Which adds another worry to my lists.