It's like there are days when I am ok, but more and more I am feeling like hurting myself as the days progress. I don't want to do anything about it, but then again I do. At night I feel better (usually), but the daytime is getting bad. I reflect on my life, and am sick at myself for the choices I've made. That's when I want to throw my hands up mist. I worry about going fir help, cause I don't want to end up in the hospital. I just want the pain to go away. It also wouldn't hurt if my mind would quit playing tricks on me. I swear someone is watching me. Am I nuts? I don't think so, but then again I may not be the best judge if that right now. Anyone agree one way or the other?