So last year I was in a relationship with a guy who knew all about my depression and the suicidal thoughts but he just found it too stressful. He had planned on cheating on me not because he was a bad guy or anything but just because he wanted some company which was different from the reality he found with me. He loved me very much (we were engaged) but he just didn't cope well even though I had come to terms with who I was. I'm now in a new relationship and my boyfriend knows about the depression part but not the wanting suicide part. After the previous relationship I became ashamed of myself and the hurt I could cause others. I don't want my new boyfriend to see me depressed because I'm scared he'll cheat on me. He thinks I'm complicated and hard to understand at times as it is. So now I'm just all distant in the hope that if I don't let myself feel anything, then I won't be hurt.... which unsurprisingly hurts him more. any of you have similar problems?