I've been depressed for a while. (I think that my meds are not working) I moved to this house in July and have had trouble getting a new doctor for my Rx's. I finally got an intake appt. for my meds (to decide if I needed Bi-Polar Meds I've Been on them for 16 years :ambivalence. Funny it took a 15 page questionnaire and 2 ½ hours to decide if I get to see doctor. Then I have to go through ALL of it AGAIN. I feel like putting it all down on a little recorder and just playing it back for everyone that asks. NOW to the point I have seen the same therapist for about 6 years, he almost 9 1/2 hours away 810 miles round trip. I have been still going to see him since I move here in July. However Can't keep making that trip it’s Too hard on me and the pocket book. Tomorrow I go see a new therapist for the first time in 6 years. First it's a woman I seem to do better with men. Second what if I say the wrong thing? or she asks questions I am so not ready to answer, or I detach myself again and sound like this unfeeling robot? I already know that when I saw the other doctor he got freaked out by some of what I said. I can't stay this way. It’s just getting to hard. How do I say that without scaring them?