I am so scared and sick and confused on what i'm supposed to do...There is this guy who shall remain nameless that i have fallen in love with and he loves me, or so he says, and one day soon we are supposed to be married (i've known him for over a year)...but i'm really scared of him because he is mean and violent and just not right...I don't even know why i love him anymore, why i loved him to begin with...he used to be nice to me, and still is on occassion...He has a good heart and good intentions but he is just not right...
He verbally abuses me in the form of put downs, and no matter what i say, its not good enough...When i try to stand up for myself he says I deserve to be put down because my thoughts and opinions are bulls*** and nonsense and that i'm just screwed up. He tells me to "f*** off" and "f*** you" all the time too when I don't say whatever it is he wants to hear.
He is an extreme racist, he thinks all non-white races, Jewish people, and GLBT people are inferior and horrible. He even told me to "stop being a f***ing d*ke" when i told him i like women, and the only reason i would have sex with him is not because i like d**ks, but because i love him.
Also, he abuses his dogs. He yells at them and beats them- with his rifles. He also threatens to shoot them all the time. He has also done horrible things to people because he got paid to do it. So that makes me wonder- would he do the same to ME if I got on his nerves?
The only thing that's good is that he lives in Oregon right now, however, he could easily come to Pittsburgh...
...I know I should leave him, and I know I should do it NOW, but I'm too scared to, and I don't know how...Because I'm scared for his, mine, and his dogs' safety...I don't know...I need some advice, please...I'm really scared and sick...
He verbally abuses me in the form of put downs, and no matter what i say, its not good enough...When i try to stand up for myself he says I deserve to be put down because my thoughts and opinions are bulls*** and nonsense and that i'm just screwed up. He tells me to "f*** off" and "f*** you" all the time too when I don't say whatever it is he wants to hear.
He is an extreme racist, he thinks all non-white races, Jewish people, and GLBT people are inferior and horrible. He even told me to "stop being a f***ing d*ke" when i told him i like women, and the only reason i would have sex with him is not because i like d**ks, but because i love him.
Also, he abuses his dogs. He yells at them and beats them- with his rifles. He also threatens to shoot them all the time. He has also done horrible things to people because he got paid to do it. So that makes me wonder- would he do the same to ME if I got on his nerves?
The only thing that's good is that he lives in Oregon right now, however, he could easily come to Pittsburgh...
...I know I should leave him, and I know I should do it NOW, but I'm too scared to, and I don't know how...Because I'm scared for his, mine, and his dogs' safety...I don't know...I need some advice, please...I'm really scared and sick...