I've had lots of suicidal thoughts/ideation in the past couple months. I've weighed methods, and settled on one. I've researched materials and feel confident I could obtain them. Whether I'd ever have the audacity to carry it out is questionable. I have not made any attempts or planned to. I know I need to be totally honest so they can properly diagnose me, but I'm afraid if I tell them all that I'll be forced into a hospital. Afraid that could cause me to lose my job, or reputation as "not crazy". My frazzled brain is always living in the future of "what ifs". Any encouragement/advice is welcome.