I know it sounds so stupid but I'm terrified of being alone at night. I feel so sick and lonely, I don't want to be alone and left to my own devices, I've begged a relative to sit with me but he wouldn't so I'm on my own. I have distractions but hell I'm so bloody scared I want to cry. I don't want to be alone tonight. I feel so cold and no matter how hot the room is I can't get warm, I don't know why I'm feeling so bad tonight.