I've been having suicidal thoughts for a few weeks. I'm feeling so tired and worn down, like I have very little fight left in me. Tomorrow my daughter leaves to visit her dad for a couple of days. Initially I thought this was a great idea because it will give me a couple of days respite...I won't have to fake it or make sure I'm taking good care of her when I can't even really take care of myself right now. But I'm starting to panic. I'm worried that without her here, it will make it that much easier to just give in to the suicidal thoughts. Not really sure exactly why I'm here or what I expect. I'm scared. I don't want to let anyone know how bad things have gotten.