tonight i just cant settle. my anxiety is at such a high point!! i tried to get some sleep [as its now 3.30am] but i couldnt settle. and i was crying. and i started thinking too much about this girl who i now hate. and my anxiety shot up, and i could hardly breathe. i started thinking about taking sleeping tablets. and overdosing on them. fuck its scares me when im like this. and the other night i was in a club, and i was really paranoid and felt shit about myself, and i saw some broken glass on the floor, and i just had images going round and round my head of me slitting my wrists. in the end i had to kick the glass away from myself. i fear im just losing control of myself. gosh. i cant live like this any longer.