I seem to be the person all of my friends turn to, and thats great, I like being able to help, but I feel like I need to scream. I am always worrying, to the point where I think I my have GAD. I worry about eveything, being late, grades, my health, my friends, my family, money, whether or not I am going to go through with suicide (I won't, I know I wouldn't, but I think about it alot). I am alwys stressed about something. Most recnetly its my friend. He called me last night, crying, he is afraid he has HIV. He has been having some of the symptoms and has been making a fe mistakes. I feel like I have been watching him mke these mistakes over and over and trying to talk to him about it, but apparently it didn't work. He has been doing things that i never knew about. I can't imagine him being sick, he has my life line, he means the world to me. I just want everything to be ok. I need him. We are going to student health services to get him tested, and I don't know if I can handle all of this. I am not even strong enough to get my own issues taken care of. I just feel like drinking right now, or running away, or burrying myself in work and school like I normally do. Sorry about the rant, I just can't hold it all in, and I can't go talk to a professional, because I am terrified of that. I can't let someone see me like this, I have to appear strong.