scared

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by FoReVeR LoSt, Aug 26, 2007.

  1. FoReVeR LoSt

    FoReVeR LoSt Well-Known Member

    OMG!!!!!!!!!!! i don't know where to start. I'm thinking more and more and it's freaking me out. What am i doing? where will it end? where will it start? will this be what i want in years to come? I'm still young, why am i thinking about the future already? i should be partying and having fun!!!!! instead, i'm stressing out and not having fun!! it's saturday night and i'm sitting @ home hanging out with my mom, ya, um...LOSER!!!! that's right, i'm a loser. There are so many thoughts in my head that i want to write down, but i don't want to reveal them...i'm embarrassed. I can't seem to stop the pot smoking, my friend wants me to go to counselling, grrrr i dont' want to. What will it be like when i'm not drinking or smoking pot? My other friend wanted to take me to AA (alcoholics annonymous), you know how that makes me feel...like a fucking lowlife that doesn't see themselves living past 30. I want to cry and cry til i can't cry no more...i need to cry :cry: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
     
  2. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    :hug: smay. :hug: