i've never considered suicide until today. and i'm very scared. im a senior in high school. my grades are going down the drain, i have payments that i simply cant afford and im trying to keep up with school and i just cant. i feel overwhelmed. whenever i talk to my mom about it, she gets all stressed out and i feel like i can't talk to her which is sad because we're so close. ive cut myself several times, but i've never wanted to actually die until today. i considered suicide as a valid option...what do i do?