Im scared of everything ive become.. i cant face the world anymore even going out of the front door makes me feel sick lightheaded and completely unsure. I cant face anyone anymore.. the only person i can truely face is my other half.. we moved away from where we used to live too many painful memories. but atleast then i could go about my own thing people didnt stare at me and i didnt feel like a complete freak. I guess in away if what people told me is true hes got what he wanted.. i cant face going to work.. i dont have friends i no-longer go out.. i have nothing and no-body... apart from him.. i can hide the self harm with hoodies and braclets i can cover up bruises with make-up.. but i cant face anybody... id rather stay where i am.. i guess truth be told i dont know why im even typing this.. its not going to get better... i have nothing left anymore... and i really wish i could just see this through and end it all. i can only hope that soon i will.