Although most of us here on the forum ( I assume ) would crave to be emotionally normal, being normal has its drawbacks. A normal person can still experience overwhelming despair, extreme rage, bitter jealousy, etc. Having emotions, or at least extreme emotions, is still very much the destiny of even the average person. I am tired of it. It does not add to the experience of being alive in any meaningful way, it simply is a powerful force that must not be allowed to run amuck. Read the posts here. Emotions must be controlled or we run the risk of letting them destroy us. I have discovered a group of peculiar people whose mental disorder actually allows them to rise above this vulnerability. Persons who have Schizoid Personality Disorder are not psychotic, nor are they devoid of all emotion. They are not sociopaths. Their emotions are for the most part very flat and muted. They are indifferent to either approval or disapproval. Also they do not desire the company of others. When they are alone,they are not lonely. They can navigate through any social setting and remain completely detatched and they expend no effort in doing so because that is their very nature. It is as if they were able to reach inside their minds and push the mute button that governs their emotions. I know that I am probably the only person on the entire forum who would want to be this way. My emotions are killing me and it would be so much more preferable to kill them instead.