While my reluctance is the result of my own personal discomposure, I still feel compelled to engage in a dialog over my ill condition. So in order to address the issue I would think it wise to simply begin by immediately discussing the problem at hand. That being, that the inner workings of my mind are intruded upon by things for which I have no control over. Multiple voices shouting to me a disturbing thoughts and suggestions. I've had them for a great many years but this was do to my isolation as a young adult, due to my insane parents who thought it best to keep me in a room from age 13 to 20. When I finally escaped my confine and obtained a life for myself, the metaphorical door for which these intruders were to enter remained relatively shut. But recent circumstances have delivered to me the identical stress driven infuriation that allows the door to swing open. Last night had an amplitude for which I've not seen in 6 months. "See, they boss you around", "They're lying to you", "Kill them", and a barrage of the same old rederik that plagued me for years and at one point, convinced me to self injure. Whether related or not, my irrational paranoia has been getting the best of me as well. More often then not I find myself clutching my knives in anticipation for someone I assume to be following me down the street. Glancing through the sliver of vision on my side eye, I track their movements as I walk around town. All the while carefully listening to the frequency of their footsteps always waiting for a quickening pace. However, this is merely one of many examples. In either case I would greatly appreciate some assistance. I don't know how long I can maintain the facade of a stable individual.