I can't stand waking up every morning and going to school anymore! It's so physically and mentally exhausting. I can't pay attention and everything's pissing me off. My grades are lowering and I just can't find the energy to do my homework, study, or concentrate. It's really hard to listen to whats going on when all i can think about is killing myself and getting it over with. The only thing I look forward to is going home, but when I'm home I'm so anxious knowing I have to go back again the next day. I can't do this anymore its ridiculous. So hard for me to even pretend i'm happy in class. Especially gym class. My teacher makes us run so much I nearly fainted and puked today. Been thinking about faking sick so I won't have to go, but I know it'll be a pain in the neck later. Need a way out. Recently, i've been fidgeting so much. Every second i'm either furiously tapping my fingers, clicking a pen, or biting a pencil or my nails. I'm so impatient and irritable. UGHHH everything's getting on my nerves! Constantly feel like punching a wall. Can't take it. I hate being here.