Back in 4th grade I was a bully, part in a group and picking on others not for fun,it was becuase Id rather not the one being picked on. I feel as if karma is out to get me, now I am getting bullied,teased,made fun of. They call me fat but I know I have realy skinnied now,they call me a retard cuase I act wierd for attention,its basicly my friends and basicly everybody I have come to contact with. I am always been called a loser and it is making my grades lower,my friend list lower,and I feel as if everybody hates my guts and as if I dont belong. Im like a voice nobody can hear, my screams of pain inside me our busting. I told the princible and if my freinds do it again,they go to jail cuase it counts as abuse to others (TOLD BY POLICE OFFICER) I have always had an idea of me standing infront of class during work or something and blowing my brains out right infront of everybody for fun, to show them what they have made me become. I havnt even told my parents cuase they over react :unsure: I need help, what do you beileve I should do?