What a mess. I just transferred universities from the University of Alberta to the University of Toronto, taking mechanical engineering in both faculties. I am taking Materials Science, Advanced Mathematics, Engineering Economics, History of Modern Technology, and History of Medicine this semester. I've taken an exact copy of Advanced Math before, and a very similar course to Materials Science. I'm skipping classes constantly - I only regularly attend the history classes. I believe I bombed the Materials Science midterm [caught me way out of left-field with the focus], and I think I did quite well on both Engineering Economics and Advanced Math [precisely, 95% with an average of 77%], and decently well on History of Modern Technology. I don't know what's going to happen. I've never gone into an exam before not knowing exactly what I was doing... This is completely unfamiliar territory. I'm planning to let my grades drop, but I'd like at least a B average. I'm also planning to transfer to prosthetics after this year, so I'm not looking ahead to graduate. This might be a huge mistake - especially considering that a formal requirement for that program is an undergraduate degree. However, I'm assured by all the prosthetists I've spoken to that they'll let me write their entrance exam for sure. If I write the exam, I think I'll get in. My History of Medicine class has a 10 page research paper worth 40% of its grade due the Tuesday after next. I have started on it [several false starts so far] but I don't think I can do it. I don't know how to research, I don't know how to write. This upcoming Monday is the drop deadline for the course, after which I will suffer an academic penalty if I don't do well. I would like to stick it through. I would like to write this paper... But I might be beating myself up and dropping my grades to accomplish something for no reason other than to say that I did. I dunno... This is nothing like my university experiences so far. I've always been a hard-working, rarely skipping keener with straight A's.