Where to start... I guess in the order put in the thread. I am in college, trying to take 9 units of classes where the requirement to transfer in 2 years if 15... If i can pass my classes I think i become a soft more credit wise. The slight problem here is that no matter ow hard i work, it does not look like I will be able to transfer to any college that isn't filled with slack off party students. I could not thrive in that atmosphere. I am stressed half to death with that alone... got two things i need to prepare for tomorrow, one is hard, one is impossible for me... I cant do any more late night study sessions... done to many already this semester and I need to catch up on sleep. Problem is if I don't, my grades fall. I am just stupid... no one who works this hard should have anything less then a 4.0. After working my ass off on an english paper, i was reminded by a fellow student about ne section that i had forgotten... it is considered 2 sperate assignments, but best i will get, if i get ALL the points is a B... where as a C or D is more likely. Ran some errands after my class today (only one on Tuesday, others are on other days), and i get home and my grandfather starts giving me to do lists, and critiques based more on his ancient thinking then anything in reality... old people have so much wisdom, but sometimes they think they have wisdom where what they really have is eccentricities, or out of date thinking. I feel my heart pounding in my chest as if i was about to fight something... damn fight or flight reaction. I know... i am pathetic that this brings me to this point... but i am waking up wishing I had not... so figured i could post here.