I have had anxiety and depression for a while and sometimes when it won't go away I start to do things to "hurt" myself. I will scratch myself really hard or use an box cutting type thing to more scratch myself than cut myself. I take certain medication for panic attacks and they make me so tired and do not solve the problem long term. Not that the self harming does either, but I find that it gives makes me feel better fast. Is this how it starts? Right now I do not feel like I would ever cut myself really bad, but I am scared.