No one wants to listen! I'm trying I'm reaching out, but I get nothing. Sorry you feel that way! Your selfish! Get over it! So thanks! I asked for friend to talk to on here. Call the suicide line is what I get! I'm afraid of dying. But it's overwhelmingly being taken over by combination of meds not working and no one to talk to. And my brain spinning out of controll if I can feel quiet for just 1 minute ok a couple of hours! Every minute goes by fast with thoughts if how to be succsesfull in getting rid of myself. So many plans. Trying to fight every one of them. Think of good things but it just turns back around on me without even relizing it. So there you go!