I thought the "Let it all out" place would be a good place to submit my first post, this way people can get to know a little bit about me and why exactly I stumbled upon this site.
Well I'm a 19 year old guy who is secretly bisexual, I hate that about me and will never have a relationship with a guy due to the fact that I think it is wrong. I'm not good for very much, I pretty much lie about myself all the time to cover up for the fact that I am not intelligent, not strong, not good looking, and not a very fun person to be around. Now heres the tough part that I get all the time "Why do you feel that way about yourself?" well I do because it is all true, I won't deny it any longer, I am good for absolutely nothing except playing video games and giving other people advise that I do not know how to take myself. I have accepted the fact that I will one day kill myself when I have the courage and I am not afraid of that fact anymore, however I will not kill myself until I move far enough away from my family and friends for them to forget about me.
How I found this site, well first I decided I was going to slit my wrist and then I decided not to because I am to weak to accept the physical pain that comes with it, then I decided to look up other (less painfull ways to finish the job) then I found this site. I don't know why but I am drawn to partake in the discussion here, maybe it is because I don't really want to die, but instead want to learn how to live, but I'm not even sure if that is true or not. I guess only time will tell me, but If I die before I find out, it's all good, I won't minde I am kind of anxious to see if there is an after life or not anyway. Well, everyone here is my post I hope to get to know some of you.
Me#2
oh and now that I look at it I shouldn't of choosen this name, you see I am not a person who is already registered with a different name, but I choose this name because this is the side of me that people in Real Life won't ever see. Sorry if I confused anyone
Well I'm a 19 year old guy who is secretly bisexual, I hate that about me and will never have a relationship with a guy due to the fact that I think it is wrong. I'm not good for very much, I pretty much lie about myself all the time to cover up for the fact that I am not intelligent, not strong, not good looking, and not a very fun person to be around. Now heres the tough part that I get all the time "Why do you feel that way about yourself?" well I do because it is all true, I won't deny it any longer, I am good for absolutely nothing except playing video games and giving other people advise that I do not know how to take myself. I have accepted the fact that I will one day kill myself when I have the courage and I am not afraid of that fact anymore, however I will not kill myself until I move far enough away from my family and friends for them to forget about me.
How I found this site, well first I decided I was going to slit my wrist and then I decided not to because I am to weak to accept the physical pain that comes with it, then I decided to look up other (less painfull ways to finish the job) then I found this site. I don't know why but I am drawn to partake in the discussion here, maybe it is because I don't really want to die, but instead want to learn how to live, but I'm not even sure if that is true or not. I guess only time will tell me, but If I die before I find out, it's all good, I won't minde I am kind of anxious to see if there is an after life or not anyway. Well, everyone here is my post I hope to get to know some of you.
Me#2
oh and now that I look at it I shouldn't of choosen this name, you see I am not a person who is already registered with a different name, but I choose this name because this is the side of me that people in Real Life won't ever see. Sorry if I confused anyone