Screw living!

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by xXWhateverItTakesXx, May 2, 2014.

  1. xXWhateverItTakesXx

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    Grrr!! Fuck everything, i can't be bothered anymore. stupid fucking job and people and having to give a shit. so depressed and no one knows and theres no one to tell. so fucking alone and just want to bleed and OD on anything i can find. just fuck life. i hate it!!!
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Sorry today was so hard for you hugs you are not alone ok hugs
     
  3. xXWhateverItTakesXx

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    I am a little calmer now..Had such a rough few months and everything is too much :( I am overwhelmed with pain everyday and now add physcial pain to that list and I am wishing for it to be over soon...But as much as I want to commit suicide I have a bf and couldn't ever break his heart like that. However some nights I come very very close...
     
  4. xXWhateverItTakesXx

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    Feeling "ok" today but this hour is hard. I feel alone and scared :( Although I can hear the birds which is nice, I might just pretend I am on an island somewhere :lol:
     
  5. xXWhateverItTakesXx

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    yes i need to talk, but there isn't anyone...so had a bad night. argued with my bf and i walked out so then he chased me and everything was crazy..then it was ok but we argued more and then i made him tea and we just had the most amazing cuddle. i felt everything just go away as he held me so tight...so im sat here crying because i can't get these images out of my head. i can see me just lying still in a coffin as he cries his heart out, and this is tearing me apart. thats how scrwed my head is. i love him to infinity and back but also i am so suicidal. then i think about getting old together and if he died first i couldn't even breathe...ugh, all this in my head..im losing control of myself....