As some of you know after my last attempt I started seeing a community psych nurse, and she's really become someone I count on, and the person I trust most. Today she says she thinks I should consider seeing another psych nurse instead of her as i'm becoming too attached. She thinks how we relate might be "untherapeutic" -- the fact that I've cried non stop since she left makes me agree, but I'm still so sad. She says the decision is mine, and we still have our appt for next week on the books. Told her how I felt and she said "no, it's nothing you did" but it doesn't feel like that. She doesn't want to be on a pedestal and insists that the power to get better comes from within me, my strength, my work. I have a headache from crying so hard. Here's how it feels to me: I don't know how but i've managed to scare away the one person who has been nice to me since i got here. I feel like such a fuck up and so alone right now. I don't know if this makes any sense, but I just had to get it out C.