Its fucking screwed up, im tired of this, i cant even have a family anymore. They drop me off at school in the morning, and pick me up after my sport. thats all i fucking get. Oh and they happily drop me off on sundays to see my horse and leave, god forbid they see the improvements i make. They dont care, i try to make us a family, to at least to something PER MONTH! is that too much to fucking ask ok three other people, to coordinate your schedule for 3 hours MAX per MONTH??? apparently so, because god forbid my mother misses her television show, on every WEEKDAY! I mean, its much more important than going out for dinner with the family. She comes with us, then sees that her show is going to be on, and leaves us, for her show. Tells me to get her food togo and to bring it home to her. she would have only missed 20 min of her show, but even that is too much. The TV is more important than our family apparently. Now my stupid fucking uncle shows up. He screws up everything :blub: i hate him, hes a stupid thief on drugs and alcohol and god knows what else. He cant be left home alone for he only steals, and now i have to deal with him. I might as well fucking killl myself. the dinner i planned for easter (and i only planned it to take the load off my grandmother whos is helping with a dying mother in law) is now cancelled, because he cant be fucking left home alone, and he sure is hell is not coming over here. Its sooo fucking stupid. my grandfather needs to kick him out. He is fucking 40 and he cant even support himself. He needs to get of drugs and all that shit or deal with his life. My grandpa cant fix him, and it hurts the rest of us so much. I cannot go out there without having to watch my back, because he will get drunk and come after me. I cant feel safe, even brushing my horse :blub: its such bullshit, i wouldnt even go out there, but my poor baby is sick, and if not for that, and how sick she was, id not go there. Id sacrafice the only happiness, its so bad, its fucked up. Im done, i dont want to be here, and obviously my family doesnt give a shit, so what left is there? if i had the fucking balls id take xxxxxxxx, even before i posted this.